“I don’t think that we’re meant to understand it all the time. I think that sometimes we just have to have faith.”
~ Nicholas Sparks, A Walk to Remember
I hear the words from the doctor but seeing the picture of my husband’s heart with the main artery 90% blocked makes it real. I wonder if that’s part of the reason why they give patients these packets of information. I flip the page to a second image of his heart taken after the stent was inserted the previous day and breathe another silent prayer. Thank you.
This man I love is the most unlikely candidate to be lying in a hospital bed talking about blockages and cardiovascular clinics. He is physically active–he is a hike leader and climbs mountains, for goodness sake!–he has never smoked, he’s easy-going, he eats a mostly plant-based diet, he doesn’t have an immediate family history of heart disease–and yet here he is.
These pictures, and other things in the packet we’ve been given, changes things. We’re moving into a new normal. Disbelief (gobsmacked: that’s a good word to describe how I feel) begins to give way to reality as we walk the corridors of the hospital hand-in-hand, getting enough activity to ensure all is well before they will allow him to leave the hospital.
Buoyed with gratitude for so many little and large things, carried by faith in the One who loves this man–and me–most and best and who still has the best and perfect plan, we return to his room and watch the clock. A few minutes after noon–the appointed hour when the doctor said he could leave–the nurse comes, removes the tube in his arm, and pronounces him sprung.
“Let’s blow this popsicle stand.”
I tuck the packet of information into the Vera Bradley bag along with the rest of his things. Gerry bids farewell to his roommate and we walk on, eager to put it all behind us but knowing it will remain our faithful companion.
As we wait for the elevator, my mind goes back to the place where my reading plan took me in the bible this morning: John 14:1. “Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me.”
It is well.