Calling

I hear her calling to me.

“Tell my story,” she whispers.

I ignore her prompting as she once ignored me.

“It’s time,” she insists. “In telling my story you will come to understand.”

Stubbornly, I turn away. I am not sure that I want to understand; there is comfort in the anger that I feel toward her.

“If I tell your story it won’t be because you ask me to,” I tell her. “If I tell your story it will be because I want to move on; it will be because I want to release the burden that you are to me.”

Some part of me knows that in telling her story I will find healing, yet I continue to resist, unwilling to risk the release of my resentment toward her, and almost afraid of what might take its place.

Thanks so much for stopping by. I'm here early most mornings with one of my photos and a few words about life and those thin places where faith intersects.
8 comments
  1. Ooh. I have a similar story. I had it all outlined and plotted out. Yet when it came down to writing it, I couldn’t. I just wasn’t ready. I’m still not ready. Can’t wait until I am, though. I love the story.

  2. This has all the earmarks of a healing in the making! Whatever the story, I KNOW the other side of it will be amazing, and free.

    Be blessed,
    Kathleen

  3. ((Hugs)) Linda, just take your time–it will all come together when YOU are ready.

    PS. I got an ipod shuffle, the tiny-tiny one for my anniversary! Can’t wait to figure it all out!

  4. Writing those stories are HARD! I have one that is waiting to be written and I am not ready to enter into that pain at this point, but I know that it will not be so bad when I DO write the story and get it off my chest. Then, why do I wait? Don’t exactly know, but when the time comes I know it will be healing.

  5. Your last line was profound … to be afraid of what would take resentments place. Action negates fear. I suspect that your fear is probably worse than the outcome. I also suspect that writing this post is your first step to taking action.

    Small Footprints
    http://reducefootprints.blogspot.com

  6. Love your new look!

  7. Melissa – when the time is right, you’ll know.

    Sassy Granny – the healing has begun!

    Kim – Thank you Kim. The process has started! Enjoy your ipod! I highly recommend loading it up with some podcasts about writing.

    Pat – sounds like you understand just where I’m coming from

    Small Footprints – the fear of the unknown is usually worse than the truth.

    Terri – thanks!

  8. You’ve got my attention! Your writing is compelling.

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