I went shopping this week. Recently it’s been a struggle every morning as I stand in a closet full of clothes and feel like I have nothing to wear. Last year at this time I loved choosing clothes in the morning; I had lots of cute outfits and it was fun! This year, it’s not so much about styles changing or clothes wearing out. It’s the size. There I’ve said it.
So I made a decision this week that I was going to stop being so fixated on the number and just go out and buy a few things that feel good and fit better. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t relax or breathe properly because my clothes are tight. Actually wearing things that are just a titch too tight makes me feel fat. (Ugh. I can’t believe I just used the f-word on my blog)
Anyway, I am letting go of the size I’ve relied on for so many years. I’m surrendering to the idea of moving up one number for now. My reliable size nn clothes will be put away for now and I will begin to move into the land of size nn.