Today marks the end of the first week of the 31-Day Gratitude Journaling Challenge. Some days I have posted my list here, on others I have written them in my journal, but every day I have documented five things I have grateful for on that day.
Today, having come to the end of the first week, I realized something about myself. It’s difficult for me to focus on gratitude when I am swept up in the busyness at my place of work. I allow myself to get caught up in “doing” much to easily; I am willing to put aside the experience of “being” in order to complete a task or achieve a milestone.
On Saturday and Sunday I found myself in a place of peace and contentment and it was easy to be grateful for many things – large and small. My lists came easy.
Today as I walked out of my office at the end of the day I realized that I had not thought about gratitude in a conscious way even once. I was busy, I had things to do, meetings to attend, and a job to do. And as I walked through the rain on the way to my car and allowed my focus to shift to my life outside of work, I realized that I had chosen to spend my day in a state of personal unconsciousness.
It is true that I have responsibilities and accountability to do the best job I can at the career I have chosen, but not at the expense of losing myself in the process. This striving that I do, this trying to do more, trying to do better, has consequences that cannot be ignored. Am I willing to lose myself and to negatively affect my health by allowing stress to have a foothold in my life. It’s really my choice, isn’t it?
So, back to gratitude.
Today I am grateful for the wisdom that being grateful has brought me.