“Feelings, and feelings, and feelings. Let me try thinking instead.”
~ C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed
I have let feelings run the show in recent days despite knowing that’s like putting life on a trajectory toward misery. I’ve known what I need to stop doing, but haven’t. I’ve had some ideas for what would be better choices, and I’ve ignored them as I’ve wallowed in the muck of feelings.
Part of it is cabin fever. Winter seemed to last forever and I’m hungering for warmer days when I can go outside (because I hate going out in the cold and that’s just all there is to it) and play in the dirt again. Life has been harsh in recent months for many in my sphere of concern; that’s been tough. And the world in general–aye yi yi.
Today I am taking the situation in hand, acknowledging the feelings that have brought to light that something is out-of-order, and choosing to step back on track.
Remembering the words I chose for 2017: intentional focus.
I’ve had several thoughts lately that have led me along a dark path…and I am thinking about these things and trying to remedy them, trying to be a better person, trying to forgive. Your posts help me so much – I sometimes feel inferior, but then I remember that many people have dark thoughts. It is helpful to know that I’m not alone. I also imagine a better world if we would all admit dark thoughts, and then acknowledge that we need to work to make it better. Thank you for being here for me, Linda.